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Dropped kids off. Danny cried a bit but then was fine. Had breakfast at Pan Pa’ Ya and then went for boxing workout. Afterwards went the Panamericana for the umpteenth time this week and dropped another wad of cash.
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Picked up the kids, dropped J. off at his writing class, had lunch at La Casa Amarilla, chatted with Cami, rushed back to pick up Ben, and finally got home.
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Ben got home in a terrible mood and immediately started beating on Danny and Lily. While he was being punished we started talking and it turned out that Mejia didn’t play with him today so he just stayed in the classroom by himself during recess. He cried so much and is really hurting. I don’t know how to help him 🙁
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Talked to the Rices; got the kids showered, fed, and in bed; waited to hear from Jose, which I finally did past midnight. He ran into some friends after his class, went to the casino, got drunk and lost this month’s money playing poker. In the car, he said I was the only one who truly loved him and that he wanted me to know he appreciated that, he said he had treated me badly and I didn’t deserve that. In bed he told me he didn’t want to leave me and that we had been cavalier with how we had dealt with things and we should talk and clear everything up. Then his tone switched and he started saying I wasn’t going to like what he had to say and it was going to upset me. He ended up saying that he didn’t want to live anymore, but I’m not sure if that was a cop-out. Next he talked about how I don’t let him do the things he wants to do and he didn’t know what to do about that. The rest of the conservation got fuzzy and then he fell asleep. I think he is conflicted and unsure of what he wants, but I will try to really listen to what he said and improve the things I can. Sigh.
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Lily quote of the day: “Te voy a acariñar.”
